A personal exploration of cinema reveals how films reflect individual sensibilities and preferences, culminating in a curated list of impactful favorites.
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A compilation of journal excerpts that delve into the intricacies of truth, intimacy, and the emotional journey of self-discovery.
The author reflects on a three-month period of personal growth and introspection through curated journal entries. The excerpts reveal themes of love, grief, self-discovery, and the complexities of human emotions. The writing captu...
Resentment stems from dependency on others for change, while love flourishes through acceptance and setting boundaries to maintain healthy relationships.
The post discusses the concept of 'feedback eaters,' individuals who solicit feedback to avoid accountability and manipulate perceptions rather than genuinely seeking improvement. It outlines their behaviors, such as high disagree...
The author provides an update on the effects of meditation-induced grief, noting that some neuroses have returned but are more manageable, surroundings feel spacious, time feels strange, and social anxiety has decreased. Emotions ...
The author discusses their experience of losing their sense of self after a meditation retreat, and the grief and adjustment that comes with it. They describe the positive changes in their perception and emotions, but also the dis...
0Competence is clarity
2025-03-10 • authenticity clarity technical competence
The author discusses the concept of competence and how it is related to clarity. They emphasize that true competence is having clarity around a subject, interest, or skill, and that it is a socially desirable trait. The author als...
The author reflects on their experience of journaling by hand every day for over 9 years, discussing the impact it has had on their life, mental health, and relationships. They also share their thoughts on the process of journalin...
0Mind viruses and demons are real
2024-12-31 •
The author discusses the impact of reading Anne Sexton's poetry and how it affected her mental state. She talks about the concept of mind viruses and demons, and how they can influence people. The author also questions the celebra...
0Find the fulcrum
2024-12-15 •
The post discusses the author's love for finding things she doesn't understand and the beauty in anything. She describes the process of finding the fulcrum, the weak point, in self-contained worlds and how it changes her perspecti...
0Sincerity and manipulation
2024-12-03 •
The post discusses the concepts of sincerity and manipulation, highlighting the importance of sincerity in building trust and intimacy, and the negative impact of manipulation on relationships. It delves into the emotional complex...
0Collecting open secrets
2024-11-18 •
The author discusses the concept of open secrets, which are truths about people that are self-evident if you really get to know them, but are never stated. These open secrets are essential for reinforcing the life they currently h...
The text discusses the decline in nutrient levels in produce over the years due to modern agricultural practices. It emphasizes the importance of speed in preserving nutrient content and reveals that Walmart sells the most nutriti...
The post discusses the author's observations on charismatic people and what makes them enjoyable to be around. They are people who demand nothing of you and are genuinely having a good time. The author contrasts them with people w...
0limerence with ideas
2022-07-25 •
The text discusses limerence, a state of infatuation or obsession, and how it can be experienced not only in relationships but also with ideas. The author shares personal experiences of being obsessed with various hobbies and topi...
0chasing evening light
2022-07-15 •
The post is a reflection on the author's experience with journaling and the passage of time, using metaphors of sand and a train journey. The author expresses a desire to slow down time and appreciate the present moment.
0free falling
2022-03-31 •
The text describes the realization of the author after experiencing an ego death from LSD, where they felt like everything was 'up in the air' and that the systems and institutions they had grown to trust were just made up by some...
0and then everything will be dust
2022-03-30 •
The text is a reflection on the insignificance of human existence in the universe and the fleeting nature of life. The author discusses their childhood memory of stargazing, the impact of Carl Sagan's Pale Blue Dot, and their shif...